Droopy Eyes

I start my first day at PetSmart today! Yay! Go, me! It's not a training shift yet though. I'll just be filling out paperwork and most likely watching a gay video. Standard job orientation-like shit. I go in at 2pm. I don't know what I'm going to wear yet. 

Okay, so you want to know something that is really fucked up? I'm actually kind of glad that Chris and Amanda are broken up. I know I deserve to be jumped for saying such a thing. Especially seeing as how Amanda is one of my best friends...but it gives me TWO single friends again, and now I'll actually get to start hanging out with Chris hopefully. I've missed him all this time. Once he started seeing Amanda, he and I completely stopped hanging out. I missed us being close and hanging out all the time like we used to. Although I guess now it'll be different since he's living back with his parents again. But he and I can at least go get drinks or go to Starbucks like we used to way back in the day. 

I'm such a selfish, horrible friend. :-/

Night Owls

I'm babysitting Devin, and this fool will not go to sleep. I can't say that I mind too much though because I'm not too tired (thank God). Soooo...I got that job at Petsmart! I start on Monday at 2. I'm so happy. My last blog, the one where I was PMSing and complaining about Adrian having not called me, well he called me back while I was on a hike in the hills with Buddy and said something about their system being really slow that week which is why he hadn't called me on Tuesday. Phew. That was a total relief after he told me all that. Hopefully I have enough motivation to walk to work as much as possible. I'm thinking once I save up enough money, I'll buy a pair of those Reebok shoes that are like shape-ups. Then I'll be lookin' fierce by my 25th bday. Woo :) 

So, Chris broke up with Amanda late Thursday night. I can't believe it. He told her that he sees her as more of a friend than a girlfriend, and that he doesn't see his feelings changing. What the hell kind of an excuse is that? He is the EPITOME of why men are way more confusing than women. I feel so sorry for Amanda...she was bawling her eyes out on the phone when I called her yesterday morning. After knowing their story, it makes me never want to be in a relationship ever again. 

PMS

Boy am I in an EMO ass mood right now. With Adrian not having called, and Claudia asking if I could borrow my mom's car for the weekend and go down to San Diego to see her, and PMSing cause I'm most likely going to be starting my period tomorrow...man. Today really sucks. 

I know they always say that you should focus on the things you have as opposed to the things you don't have, but I'll tell ya...it's REALLY hard to do that right now. All I can think about is that I don't have money, I don't have a car, which equals to me not having a life. It's true, I don't. I can't go out w/out a car...so I don't. I used to borrow my mom's rather frequently, but that was before gas prices sky rocketed all of a sudden. Also, it saves me the the headache of having to fight my parents for the keys like I used to do before. I'd rather just not even ask. 

I'm really hating life right now. ADRIAN CALL ME PLEASE.

Signs

I called Petsmart to speak to Adrian earlier this morning, and he wasn't in yet...so I waited to see if he might call once he got in...nothing. I called again just now, and he's at lunch! WHAT THE FUCK MAN. So I left a message with one of the sales associates, with my name and number...HOPEFULLY he calls me back. I'm taking all of this as a bad sign. I hate to be pessimistic, but arrgggghhhhh. I feel depressed now. Damn, PMS.

BOREDOM!

I am extremely bored right now. I'm also feeling pretty irritable. I'm going to start my period soon...most likely tomorrow. I think I need to eat something. All I've had so far today is a big cup of coffee. Adrian nor Brian from Petsmart has called me yet. I'm starting to become discouraged :( I called earlier today, but Adrian wasn't in yet. Why can't someone just call me already to tell me yes or no?????? I'm going nuts. Blah. I need a life. I feel down now.

Dear Lord...

I am gonna go to bed tonight with the HOPES and PRAYERS that tomorrow Adrian or Brian calls me and confirms that I got the job. I hope they call me early in the morning, too. I'm ready to work and make money and start taking care of my own damn self. Please please please God make this happen.

What the...???

Brian, one of the managers from Petsmart whom I interviewed with last Friday, told me that Adrian would be giving me a call today about the job. And no one called me!!! I was expecting that phone call all. day. long. Seriously I was. I even received a congratulatory email today from them saying that a manager would be contacting me to further the job hiring process. Grrrr...I hate being left in suspense. Did I for sure get the job or not???? I wanna know so I can get on with my life!!!!

Petsmart

I'm keeping my fingers crossed to hear from Petsmart tomorrow and find out whether or not I got the job. I'm hoping I did!!!!!!!! I had an interview at Blockbuster (technically yesterday now), and I don't know if it went well...I'm still kinda scratching my head over it. The only question I was asked where I was like, 'shit' was when he asked me if I knew anything about the company. Uh...no. Why should I??? Meh, we'll see I guess. Gotta start working out tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay Oh Bee

I've had 2 interviews with Petsmart, and I have an interview with Blockbuster coming up on Monday. I am so happy. I'm trying to send out positive thoughts into the universe to help me with my chances for scoring these jobs. How awesome would it be to have 2 jobs? I'll be truly happy with one though. I want 2011 to be MY year. I wanna get shit DONE! My next feat is to lose some serious poundage. Long-term goal is to buy my own car. It'll happen...oh, it'll happen.